Blessing(s) 25 of 52
It’s hard to even type this and it feels even harder to call it a blessing. I have said before that blessings are often found in pain and this blessing is no exception. My baby of 15 years, my Hunny, the love of my life, my sweet basset hound was diagnosed with cancer. He had started having trouble eating and swallowing, so I took him to the vet and they found an oral cancerous tumor that had metastasized to his lungs. My sweet baby.
I had never experienced a shock or grief as I had when the vet delivered the news. I was in denial and disbelief and immediately said I wanted a second opinion (more on that next week). And, yes, I’m writing this a few weeks behind. In this experience of Scooby being diagnosed with cancer, came many blessings. First, I was blessed to be able to be at home with him the majority of the week. My schedule this week was a little more flexible and I have so much gratitude that God gave me the time with him. I was able to lay with him, absorb his energy and be truly present with him. I felt on a intuitional level that my days with my Scoobster were limited. That’s the first and most important blessing, as time is our most valuable resource.
Scooby’s diagnosis this week, truly opened my heart. It was raw, it was painful and filled with so much unconditional love. I truly was filled with gratitude for all the memories and love that Scooby provided and was continuing to provide. It was really hard to watch his decline during the week and I’m so thankful that I could be there to guide him, love him and remind him all week just how truly special he is.
The second lighter blessing, because I wanted to stay home with Scooby every second I could, I decided to binge watch a new show. That show was “Emily in Paris”. I have to say I was hooked from the first episode and, in true fashion, need to get to Paris immediately. I’m not one for binge watching shows, but I did this week. It was exactly what I needed. I will always think of Scooby when I see Emily in Paris.
So, I had a couple new experiences this week. One, being one of the most important beings on planet earth getting a terminal diagnosis. I had never experienced someone so close to me receiving terminal news and watching the decline of life. Which is so wild, that I work in Hospice and am surrounded by it. However, it hits different when it’s in your home.
The second blessing, is discovering Emily in Paris. I will always credit this show for helping me through that week.
“The bond with a true dog is as lasting as the ties of this earth will ever be.” – Konrad Lorenz