Blessing 20 of 52
This new blessing came in the form of me not jumping ship when I became uncomfortable. I’m part of a beautiful spiritual group where we use our intuitive gifts for the collective. It’s truly a beautiful space that has opened me up and where I’ve become more aquatinted with my spiritual gifts. The container holds people from all around the world, which I’m also eternally grateful for as they are my soul people.
This particular week, we were on the call and our leader introduced a new method we were going to try out. I immediately got really nervous and didn’t want to do it. I have a hang-up with trying new things and not letting myself be messy at first. I see it playing out currently and in the past. I’ve always been scared of being wrong and making a fool of myself. Possibly it stems from perfection and not wanting to be vulnerable? I don’t know but it’s really been a block at times and has held me back from taking risks.
This particular instance, when she shared the new method, I almost hopped off the call before we practiced. Some people did leave, but I truly think that’s because they had to as the call was going longer. I was going to leave purely for the fact that I didn’t want to be uncomfortable and practice in front of the group. However, in that moment, I had two choices and I made the choice to stay on the call and try. To let myself be in the unfamiliar, to learn and to grow. Per usual, I’m so glad I did! I learned a offering and, experienced something I never have, so I can write about it now.
“You can only grow if you’re willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new.”– Brian Tracy